~I will sing in the day of trouble that He is faithful~

~ Call upon me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me~
( Psalm 50:15)

I was in the hard times around in mid of June, I almost thought that God didn't love me at the moment. He might allow me to have tears again when I wanted to be happy but...the sorrow at the time couldnt be compared of what He worked for me on the cross, what all He has done in past that's why I wont give up to love Him. I will love Him no matter how hard it is. I decided to spending time with him more  but again I didnt have space and time (that I live in orphanage, and sleep with the girls). I lost my mind how I could have time with Him. My heart was tired if I thought all these stuff so but then I decided to praying and fasting everyday...I needed to wait all my family went home from their vacation here and I really could have time with Him but I wanted they stay here for longer . Finally they went home, I tried to not much spending time on daily stuff instead, have devotion time and fasting days. I counted that almost 3 weeks I did my fasting and devotion at night while everyone's sleeping.  I was doing that with a friend - she is one of the girls here and she went to seminary school and get to know God more so I invited her that I knew she would be y best partner for this.

One night after dinner I threw up and next day I got sick, and I stopped to fasting and I did my devotion as I could...I was talking to God " Dear Lord God,  I know You love me and just maybe You want to see  me like your beloved Job. I give it all to You, just do as You please for me" I was kind of teasing Him though. lol :D

The next day my dad got a call about paying the bills and some stuff. My heart was so heavy seeing my parents didn't have enough money..."I've been looking for jobs, been praying but seems nothing changing"

"Hold on My beloved" said God.

I just didnt understand Him sometimes...I started to feel people judged me of my faith to Him. I ran to find a spot where I could be alone and it's on the roof...where no one could see me...and I cried but I was still talking to Him "Oh why ?" I started to feel hungry and it made me think the sad things more.

So i just went to sleep after all day. In the morning I checked my email...it's sweet email from one of my blog friends Maryah. She said that she was dreaming of me and she decided to pray for me after that dream and she sent me a passage in Psalm 145 : 8 -12.

The Lord is gracious and merciful;
Slow to anger and great in lovingkindness.
The Lord is good to all,And His mercies are over all His works.
All Your works shall give thanks to You, O Lord,And Your godly ones shall bless You.
They shall speak of the glory of Your kingdomAnd talk of Your power;
To make known to the sons of men [a]Your mighty actsAnd the glory of the majesty of [b]Your kingdom.

I felt that God remembered me at the moment. So my heart full with songs just because I was reminded that He still there for me. Thank you Maryah, I know God used you for this. 

The next couple days I got a very very great news ...it made me soooo happy I even got tears of joy. Sean's coming to see me and my family!!! My parents already knew it clearly and they tried hiding me, I thought he wouldn't come but he did and the mission is failed so it's my turned to surprise him at the airport. It was beautiful time my whole family came to airport and picked him, they planed to filming and got pictures but it was precious moment everyone's crying because we never met before  since the first time he helped me. ( click Love Story to read how I met him) it took for 5 years that I had never met him in person but finally God allowed it. It was just beautiful..it was like in movie when the first time I met him and hugged him. Oh finally! God has been so faithful we all cried.  I uploaded my picture with him on facebook and I got respond from my friends - they called me on the phone and cried  (especially my college friends they know my struggle for 5 years) so we cried together :) it's just beautiful.

So he was here for a week and it was my first time to dating a guy that also the man after God's own heart - I'm glad to see how God made it so beautiful. Sean served my family, and I was so relieved to know my family loves him and he also loves my family.  On Sunday service, he shared his powerful testimony of knowing God when he was 16 - he was unexpected baby but God sent him to this world for His great purpose!  I tried to hold my tears because it was surprise for me I just heard the testimony in detail... it's always beauiful of how God calling someone to be His forever. 

My most favorite part was when we went to my favorite place in the early morning of the last day before he back to US. It's kind of small field behind my house, you just can see the beauty of the Lord when you there....haha the girls in orphanage told him that it's my favorite place and he asked me to go in the early morning to watch the sunrise and we could share our devotional time and tea morning. I woke up so early and got ready and there we spent time together with God and my dog :) when we were reading our Bible..the sun was rising up and it was so beautiful. We have so many sweet memories together. We both praying for the day God will unite us as one.

Now we can see the lens of God's heart that He is beautiful

I was so happy but actually I still have one burden in my heart about helping my family. It's just crazy because two days later after Sean went back to US - I got a call to work. I got a job now, I work in Kumon as English teacher. " Wow! Thank you Lord, but i feel like it's your turn to teasing on me" :) 

So that's why Ive been not blogging too much! 
Thank you for Amy - Anne Williams that you always ask about me :) I'll be back to you.


I havent be able to send all the rewards stuff, I will still think about to send it soon - sorry for being late.
Thank you for Lizzie and Mrs. Karen for helping Sean to his project. You will will have rewards from him soon.

I'll be back next week - It's Muslin Celebration and I get one week off from work. I have missed coming to everyone's blogs. So get ready!



Things Update: ( Announce & I leave this blog)

My Dear Friends,

I'm really sorry for not taking care of my blog since few weeks ago. I just wanted to say thank you for all your prayers for Sean, he is now in Cambodia if you wondering you can click here to see some of his pictures of Cambodia.
 And I want to announce that here are some names that I will send them the rewards ( sorry that I'm late for posting this)

1. Karen from Beatrice Euphemie Vintage Cottage Style
2. Lizzie from His Redeemed Child
3.Gerry Michalski
4. Faith from Princess Faith
5. Elizabeth Wowor

I cant say enough thank you for all your helps. Thank you so much!

Please send me your home address at delvalina37@gmail.com

I will send the rewards on July

I have lot things to do my friends, very and super hard to get into computer. I only can check all online stuff through my phone. some of you are in my mind. Sorry for not visiting you.

I'm not able to check everyone's post except it goes to my email. I will leave this blog till next month hopefully.

Please praying for me during the hard times but God is too beautiful and not compares with things I've been through.

Love you & Blessing


~My Heart Comforter~

They are in my mind
all the times
all days
all nights

easily worry
easily broken
easily cry

I am introvert though I won't admit it, though this blog shows you I really am
I admit He own my life, my days, my destiny.

where my heart will find a peace?
where my soul be still?
where I meditate? 


Treasures from Miss Lizzie

I chose this as dispaly pictures on this post  for you Lizzie
I wondering do you think I could reprsent one of ladies' character in the books? hehe

My dear friends, before I share about how I met Lizzie, first I just wanted to show you some parts my message to Lizzie when the package came to me on last Wednesday.

My dear friend Lizzie,
i'm so happy today. This morning a post man came home. He even remembered my name "Miss Delva" haha. I was so thrilled about the package which means we're relieved it was not lost. I more surprised that it was in a box. I wondering what inside and drum roll......
oh my! The darling tea cup and saucer! I love its regency rose. You know what, mom and I have been looking for this kind of tea cups because we will arranging in a corner cupboard after painting the whole house. God knows, doesnt He?!!! He is so sweet. 
then my hand reached the books. I was like omg omg omg....I guessed before you would send me a book of Jane like maybe Pride and Prejudice because it is popular one but here it's a package of 3 edition which I cant wait to read them all especially about Elinor...I'm curious what she is like. Thank you so much. 
then...I didnt see the pink bag until I wanted to close the box, but I got your letter first, then I read it... And oh...that is the most beautiful necklace that I've ever seen in my entire life. I even want to wear it in special occasion probably for my wedding someday. Thank you. I love every detail of that necklace. Love it so much!

I got these treausure from a dear friend Lizzie Hargett from His Redeemed Child

please enjoy the story how I met her and how I style these treasures :)

I tea cup with saucer : I just love the rose regecy on it :)
and a vintage necklace which is so so so darling.
3 books of Jane Austen's books

It's like almost two year ago

I met a dear friend - I stopped by in her blog because I love Austen's regencies, she seemed a fan of Jane Austen. So I decided to follow her on her blog.
There we started to be friend - we kept in touch through bloging stuff. 
I remember the day I posted my first giveaway and asked everyone if they willing to share my giveaway.
No one responded it, until someday I wanted to come to her blog and "what? she shared it?" I was not sure why she was so kind to me. It's such a good feeling when you meet someone who could appreciate you here.

This is my most favorite picture. I just love the sunset shine behind these two treasures.

So, I counted on her sharing and she won my giveaway.
I sent her a butterfly necklace (it's my favorite necklace) I felt classy and etnic each time I wore that necklace. That was the only one of precious thing that I had for young girl. So I decided to send it.
and I'm happier that she likes it alot.
We started to be friend but don't much I talked to her

a sweet note in this floral card

until she showed me again her love to me. I'm blessed because God used her to remind me that I'm special and I'm loved.
Dear Lord, who's this girl? we got a clicked
I'm just so thankful about this friendship.
I know, I'm not perfect and sometimes I always be dissapointing on people, in friendship.
But I'm praying that our friendship will lasted forever till we go to heaven.

again, a vintage necklace with the pink rose :)

Thank you so much Lizzie,
I lost of my words...

I love you dearly as a friend and sister.
I'm inspired by your life, your caring home, your piano, your classy look, and more your life to God.

So here how I style it

trying the  hair updo 




as always, I have a fun selfie pictures :D





Sense His heart more

When I pray for more, I can sense His heart for more.

 And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who seek Him.
( Hebrew 11:6)
You know there's a moment when you feel empty inside and you want to give the emptiness to the Master. I just want to do it now.  I have my routine devotion for years, I have built this relationship for years, but have you ever feel like you stuck in middle? When you are not in your praying position you will not know what was that. I said "praying" means the way you keep in touch with God.

God allowed  me through the hard times and good times and  it always end with "whys" I drew a line from one dot to another and oh! He just showed me a lesson. If I never found another dots, then I never draw a line, maybe I will stuck ot it's circle and get into old things, the old things is such a boring, and there your hear cries out, the emptiness is in your heart. So, let's back to the praying position. I did in this position but nothing change?! well, extend it! He wants to see our faith extended too.

I just wrote down those words in my Bible, and I will need to wite on my desk too. It just a clue for me lately about questioning things. Well, you would not had an answer till your head moors to His heart. So much things in my mind lately. I'm kind of a worried person though I dont want to admit it! God is such a perfect teacher...He is a Master of life - my life, your life, our lives.

Did you know my friends, that I've been in that area now? I decided stay closer to Him each day. More.! Then I can sense His heart, then I know what lesson He is teaching about.

For now, I'm in a friendship lesson - I sense that He wants me to know what is friendship in Him. I had some lessons before, my heart wont stop wondering that He is a great teacher :) well, I need to be a good students - I need to write down what He meant in every lesson.

Let us sense His heart for more, and get ready for the fruits.


I am still waititng for the Help- Rewards well, it's kind of giveaway but in different way maybe :)

I will announce it on June 24th, to whom I will send it and how much we have raised.


I've been painting and decorating my house. I'm just happy that this time, my mom allowed to do with my own ideas. I would love to capture it for you here, and that's why I've been not here.
and I need to reply some of your sweet emails to me.

Thank you so much my dear friends,



Sewing for my friend

Hey, it's me again. I just posted something about helping me and my rewards and it seems no one get interested in it. I felt it little emberassing me, but God has another way to helping me. I'm grateful that He could use pastor Gerry and some of the canadian people kept coming and even shared it. It just really made my day. Thank you Jesus, You always there for me. And thank you for those who support me through your prayers and sweet words in comment  . If you wondering what the last post just clikc here - I'm still glad to send the gifts to you.

So some of you wondering about my next project...I actually no projects about sewing for my ownself - I just started to sewing for those who asked me to make their dresses. But I've been working to make some stuff though.
Kathrin is one of my friends who asked me to make her a dress.

I wonder if you have seen this design before


So this is how it turns... :)
it doesn't look perfect  and I still need to learn more and more excercise. I love it though.

So please dont this..we actually took pictures on the roof just to reach the sunshine.




Kiss the sun

we played untill the sun went down


Thank you for stopping by my friend.
Have a wonderful day.

I'm off to Jogja to see some of my college friends and to measure two of them :)

I'll be back to you soon.




~Help me and Get the Rewards~

Hello My Dear Friends,

I hope each one of you doing well. I'm back here to share you a project that my friend Sean will have a humanity project in Cambodia, he will visit me as well - Lord's willing. If you wondering for more about the project you can read http://www.throughhislens.com/cambodia/ for more.  I want you to help me with this with spread it out in your blog, or facebook, twitter, or even you can donate for him. Besides this I also love to share you the gifts - as I always want to have giveaway but Im getting hard to do it. So I decided with this way as well. There will be 3 kinds of rewards. I will announce this till June 24th. So far it's raised $628 in this campaign site but it is already closed so he use his photography site. I want to help to reach $1000 so maybe this can help - Lord willing :)

So, how the rules?

 for those who can donate it with $5 - $10 and share on the blog
you will receive a lovely purse with 3 gifts inside.
For donating, you can visit link above and find the donate buttons


If you only donate  then you will receive this purse and two gifts.

Third, if you can only share on your blog or your social media
you will recieve this necklace or a flower brooch 

The last rules is,

Please link me back here about your posting or you can tell me in my email : delvalina37@gmail.com

So that's it how you can participate. Your help will be mean world to me.
I will share that how much the money we have raised.

I'm sorry that this is not fun post to be read :)

Thank you so much.